Friday, March 13, 2015

Children are messy... but so are we.


One thing I love about the children here is their eagerness to help. I can be carrying a toothpick around the compound and without fail at least one waist-high child will ask if they can carry it for me. Simone comes by almost daily to ask if today is the day she can scrub my verandah. If children come by and I am too busy to play with them, I hand them a broom and they fight over who gets to sweep my house. It’s crazy. And hilarious. In a good way. Most of the time.

This morning, not long after I heard the echo of prayer that marks the end of breakfast in the children’s home, there were three chocolate-colored cuties perched in my doorway. Following the general rule, they politely asked if they could enter, and once I let them in I asked what they wanted to do. Most of the time, children choose to spend their time reading, going through the piles of books I have strewn around my house. Today, however, as Jethro and Aaron were eyeing the books, Tabitha’s gaze turned to my kitchen.

“Auntie Katie, your chicken is messed!” she said. (Not many of the young children can say the word kitchen.) “Can we clean your dishes?”

My immediate response was negative. I have a system for many things, and washing dishes, especially in such a small space, is one of those things. I like them done a certain way. I knew those nursery school children would not come close to the efficiency and standard I had set.

And then I thought… who cares? I hadn’t washed dishes in about three days—it’s not like efficiency was the first thing on my mind. Plus, it would be something fun for them to do. I carefully maneuvered my coffee table into the kitchen, leaving no standing room but making it so the children could see into the sink. I poured the tiniest bit of dish soap into a bowl, handed out one sponge, one washcloth, and one towel, and stood back to see how they would cope.

It was… messy. What else would you expect from four- and five-year-olds let loose with a sink and soap? Jethro was not content to dry with the towel; he wanted the soap from Aaron. Aaron wanted to use as much water as possible, despite the fact that he was farthest from the sink. Tabitha turned washing into a sort of dance in which she swirled the sponge in any round object she could find, which got to be rather difficult as they poured more and more soap onto everything. A drizzle of a waterfall cascaded off the counter and onto the concrete floor, and I knew there was no stopping it. Once or twice one of the children nearly slipped off the coffee table, which had pools of mud from the dishwater mixing with their dirty feet. Things got more and more wet, but not more and more clean, and I waited apprehensively to hear the first dish slip from soapy fingers and shatter on the floor.

Feet are never clean here... and therefore neither was my table.

In the midst of the slippery chaos, I realized… I am no different from them. None of us is any different from them.

How often do I run up to God, pleading for him to let me help with this one thing? I want to work with children in poverty; I want to go to Africa; I want to teach. God, can I please, please do this? You need people to do this!

As if.

I wonder what the world would be like if God did things the way He planned. I wonder what would be different if God operated everything according to His perfect, well-planned system. I wonder what it would be like if we stopped getting in the way.

I step into a country, a city, a situation, see a mess, and say, “I can take care of that!” I dive right in, doing everything I think is right and necessary and helpful, not realizing that what I’m really doing is flinging water all over the place. I am like Tabitha, swirling a sponge in a glass, mesmerized by the progress I think I am making and not even noticing the sudsy drip from my elbow to the floor. I tend to get so caught up in teaching children to read and setting up the library and preparing talks for gatherings with the teenagers I forget to ask God how He wants me to do it. I forget that I am the one helping Him, not the other way around. God is more than capable of ministering to the world on His own, but He graciously gives us the opportunity to jump in and take part in His work. He gives us that honor.

I have to admit that despite the flooded kitchen and muddy table, it was much more fun to watch those children try to help me than it would have been to stick with my system alone. After awhile, the first three had to leave and four slightly older ones took their place. They soon realized four was too many for the limited counter space, so two went on their way and two remained. Caleb and Jared patiently washed, rinsed, dried, and stacked the dishes on my couch because with the coffee table in the kitchen I couldn’t open any cupboards to put things away. Being the responsible boys they are, when they finished they hung up the towels… which dripped down the wall and immediately made yet another puddle on the floor.

These four children are twice as old as the
ones who initially started washing.

After they left, I spent some time doing damage control, which proved difficult since they had left no dry towels in the house. But you know what? In the end, the dishes were clean.

Of course, there was no room for them in the kitchen...

However messy the process, I pray my own endeavors within God’s work will result in the same happy ending.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Deep Treasure




“Approach each new day with desire to find Me. Before you get out of bed, I have already been working to prepare the path that will get you through this day. There are hidden treasures strategically placed along the way. Some of the treasures are trials, designed to shake you free from earth-shackles. Others are blessings that reveal My Presence: sunshine, flowers, birds, friendship, answered prayer. I have not abandoned this sin-wracked world; I am still richly present in it.

“Search for deep treasure as you go through this day. You will find Me along the way.” (Jesus Calling)

I have been finding it difficult to concentrate on God tonight. After spending all day cleaning, I keep thinking of how much there is left to do in my house. Parts of movies recently watched replay behind my eyelids. I mentally write my next blog, the one I intended to post five days ago. Things don’t slow down, and they certainly don’t stop.

I close my eyes, willing myself to focus on you, wishing the other images would fade into nothingness. They don’t. Maybe holding my hands out will help—open so you can take everything I have and I can receive you. Lists spin through my million-mile-an-hour brain. Frustration.

Listen for me, you say.

That sound be easy. Nature is quite loud tonight and I always hear you in nature.

I close my eyes and listen.

There is evidence of you all around.

Evidence, yes, you say, but that is not me tonight.

I try to identify individual sounds. The uneven rhythm of cicadas envelops me.

Are you in the cicadas?

No.

I try to tune out their hum and focus on another sound. Surprisingly, even from up on this hill I can hear croaks from the streambed below.

Are you in the frogs?

No.

The chorus of other insects blend and swirl together, and above them all (audibly and literally) an airplane passes overhead like a star broken free and on a mission. It is not beautiful. Man-made swooshes as metal fights past air is not beautiful.

Surely you are not in the airplane.

There is no reply, which I take for another no. What other sounds am I missing? Aunties talking by the home. Cars on the main road. Insects upon insects upon insects. Faint shouts from across the valley. I lean back and focus on my breathing.

My breathing.

Two long seconds in, stretched to their breaking point, a slow curve, and two measures out, relaxing and releasing, even, metered, and graceful. Over and over again. By the grace of God, over and over again.

That is where you are. Not in the cicadas or the frogs or the airplane, but in me. In every inhale and exhale. In every blink, every thought, every forgotten moment. I breathe you in and I breathe you out and still I think I have to look around to find you.

What a deep treasure it is to have your Spirit in me. 

Friday, February 13, 2015

Quotables


Lois (11): Auntie Katie, what did you eat for lunch?
Me: Chapattis and avocado.
Lois: You ate Abigail?!
Me: A-vo-ca-do.


Lois

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As I am walking up the hill with the nursery school children at the end of the day, one of them holds my water bottle for me.

Nathanial: I want some water! Share with us, Auntie Katie.
Me: No, the water is only for me.
Manuela: But I want water! You need to give us some.
Thomas: Yeah, Auntie Katie, you need to share!
Me: Trust me, I’m not saying this because I don’t love you. I want you to stay healthy. I can’t share with you.
Thomas (5): Agh… God is going to punish you for not sharing.


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As I am working on my computer on my verandah, Christy (8) sits down next to me and watches what I am doing. She then says, slightly confused, “Auntie Katie, I didn’t know your second name was MacBook.”


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A few minutes after I send Manessa away to go to the bathroom, he comes back into my house.

Thomas: Ah! Manessa didn’t wash his hands! They’re dry! Auntie Katie, he’s going to give us all Ebola!

Nathaniel & Thomas
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Thomas: Here comes Mr. Jesse!
Jesse: Here comes Mr. Jimmy!
Christy: Here comes Mr. Auntie Katie!
Me: Christy, am I a mister?
Christy: Yes.
Me: I don’t think so. Are you a mister?
Christy: No.
Me: What are you?
Christy: A cow.

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Tessa (5) and I finish a Winnie-the-Pooh themed puzzle with a picture of Rabbit on it.

Me: Great job, Tessa! Do you know who that is in the picture?
Tessa: Rabbit!
Me: And what kind of animal is rabbit?
Tessa: A kangaroo!

Tessa
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While the children are combing my hair:

“Auntie Katie, how do you get your hair to be like this?”
“I don’t know. It just grows that way.”
“Did you plant seeds?”


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Boda driver: Hello hello hello!
Me: Hello.
Boda driver: Morning morning morning!
Me: Good morning.
Boda driver: I love you!
Me: (keep running and look straight ahead)


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“Tim plus Amos equals seven. Is that right, Auntie Katie?”
“Um…”


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As I leave the children’s home, one of the toddlers runs outside.

“Auntie Katie!” he yells. I look back and he is standing with his arms stretched out to each side as far as they can go.
“What?”
“Auntie Katie, I want a biiiiiiiiiiig hug!”

He knew what he wanted. Good for him.


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While playing Old Maid with Angel and Martha, I shuffle the cards and do a bridge. Their eyes get huge.

Angel (9): Auntie Katie… you’re magic!

Angel
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Leah (10): (poking me in the side) Last time you came you were thin. Now you are very fat. Auntie Katie, you’re turning into a hippopotamus.

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One afternoon I was preparing a holiday craft in my house. As I cut and glued paper for a piƱata, a few children gathered on my front steps and watched silently for a few minutes.

Manuela (6): (with a wistful sigh) I wish I was Auntie Katie so I could be doing that… but then I wouldn’t know how to wash my stockings.

(For the full story on this quote, read my recent post: I Know My Stockings Are Dirty)

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Lois: Did you get food in Kampala when you picked the babies?
Me: No, we only got babies.
Lois: Why?
Me: Because it would be too hard to hold the food in one hand and a baby in the other hand.
Lois: No! All you have to do is put the babies in a suitcase! … No wait… that’s not right…

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Isaac (5): I like your face… Everyday I like your face.

Isaac. I like his face too.
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Angel and Sarah come running up to me. Sarah shows me a cross-stitch kit.

Sarah: Auntie Katie, do you know how to do this?
Me: I think so. It’s been a long time but I used to do them.
Sarah: Can you help me?
Me: Sure, I can try.
Angel: (to Sarah) See, I told you Americans know how to do that.


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Lois: Auntie Katie, your skin is getting darker.
Me: Yeah, that’s what happens to mzungu skin when it’s in the sun a lot.
Lois: (thinks for a moment) When you came, you were a mzungu. Now you are half-caste. If you stay until Christmas, you’ll be as dark as me!  

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Over the holidays we did a relay race around the compound. As part of the preparation, I filled balloons with peanuts and hung them with pegs from my clothesline. When I finished, I turned around to find a confused girl behind me.

Dorothy (6): Auntie Katie, why did you wash your balloons?

Dorothy
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While introducing Pin the Tail on the Donkey to the nursery school children:

Teacher Harriet: What animal is this?
Children: A donkey!
Teacher Harriet: Yes, it is a donkey. What is it missing?
At least five children: Mary!

These children know their Bible stories. They are not so good at their animals… not one person noticed the donkey was tailless.